Doing what I want

Two things that I would like to do this year is lose between 6-8 pounds (to get me back to pre-motherhood weight) and to do more writing.
I love writing. I used to write all the time. Actually write. With a pen. On paper. And I was good at it.
When I started this blog I wrote all the time and had a bunch of people who read it regularly. It was therapeutic and I needed an outlet for all the shit that I was going through as I began my journey into autism.
I think everything changed when I had Eva. There was just no time to sit and write. When she got sick I wanted an escape so I got into the habit of surfing celebrity gossip websites. I love them. I still check them throughout the day. It's fast, easy and I don't have to commit to anything. I can judge the celebrities, without being judged for being too judgmental.
I can find new trends that I try to mimic (sideswept bangs and shimmery eyes) or make sure I don't fall into (Uggs).
Roll my eyes at awful baby names (Dolly? Bronx?)
Or find 5 must-do excersises to get glutes like Jennifer Aniston.

Fun, frivolous stuff that has nothing to do with the challenges that face me everyday as a mom. So I think perhaps that is why I have neglected my poor blog. She meant so much to me and was there for me when I needed her most and here I have gone and turned my back on her. For celeb gossip...
Sooo...my goal is to spend more time with her. I miss her.
And I would like to try and write less about autism and more about whatever.
I have done posts where I have no idea what I will write about when I open the laptop and then stuff just flows. There's never NOTHING to say. Nothing to write about. There's always something.
And I want to. I really want to do what I have done since I was a little girl. Just write. About whatever.

And I will post pics of my beauties. Cuz they are beauties.

Christmas Eve:


the BoyZ:


Sweet Eva aka Cindy-Lou Who: